I just had a major anxiety attack...

I was getting into the bathtub to soothe some stomach cramps, which have become a regular occurance, and I looked down at my body and froze...

My ribs are sticking out way farther than they were last week. I guess I just didn't notice because I've taken more showers than baths this week, but holy shit was I freaking out.

I don't know what to do with myself. I've incorporated a lot more food in my diet but I'm still losing weight.

I don't know if I am even going to go to the rest of my classes this semester. The stress is just making me worse.

I hope the cruise will help me relax. Maybe the food will fatten me up a little bit. One can only hope. As soon as our new insurance kicks in in July, I am heading straight to a hematologist and gastroenterologist to figure all this stuff out.