Blarg....

So ummm yeah... I haven't blogged since I had a xanga. I thought about going back to xanga to start up blogging again, but I feel I have grown so much since then that I am a completely different person with a lot of different interests. I miss you xanga, but you are no longer for me.

With that said, I am 21 years old. I might have Crohn's disease. I have also not made it back into music school as planned.

Here are some reasons why:
1. I dropped out of school my first year. (It was the wrong school for me)
2. I got married. (Best decision I've ever made, BTW)
3. I worked for a year before going back to a community college. (Ivy Tech)
4. I applied to music school in GA (where we will be moving) but was rejected
5. Not only was I rejected to music school, but I was rejected to the university as well. Despite the fact that I had good grades last semester. (Dean's list FTW!)

So now what do I do:

Well I'm definitely going to keep playing my clarinet. As for everything else, I have no friggin clue. I really wish I knew someone in the same situation as me. That would make things easier.

Some thoughts of mine at the moment:

1. I could get employed by a vet office and maybe become a vet assistant through a community college program. ( something I've been thinking about for a while)
2. I could go to a community college that has a music associates degree. (probably my most realistic option)
3. I could take online classes and get well. (more on that later)
4. I could take a break from academia and go to culinary school. (if affordable)

As for my health right now....It's kinda not good, better, but not good.

Here's why:
1. I have chronic (but functional) diarrhea/loose stools everyday. About 3-5 times a day.
2. I have blood an mucus in my stool.
3. My weight has been dropping.
4. I am anemic
5. My doctor says I may have Crohn's disease.

On a positive note:

I successfully poached eggs today. Thank you Julia Child!