"You're on a path, you have a gift, don't waste it."

That was something my lessons teacher told me today. It was our last day of lessons. I'm going to miss him. He's the only one that never showed any signs of giving up on me. He never sent me away, like who that shall not be named.

And ya know what, he's right. I may not be in music school, and I may have been rejected a bajillion times, but I'm still a musician. There's nothing that can change that. I have and will create music, for the rest of my life. I need to stop telling myself that I am not a musician just because I'm not "officially" studying music right now. And I need to get inspired and practice.

Hopefully things in Georgia will be different. I hope to see more musical performances, theater performances, etc. Maybe I'll even start painting again. The benefit of waiting to get back into school is I have time. Time that I actually need to utilize this time for fostering my creativity, getting healthy, and being a better wife and person.

I didn't utilize the time I had before, and I became lazy. After I became lazy, I became sick and couldn't even keep up with simple things like housework. I took my health for granted, and now that I'm sick I regret it. I've been running on autopilot, because it was the easiest thing to do. I need to be more attentive. I need to start trying at life. I need to stop being afraid.

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Lately All I can think about is food...

I haven't been able to make anything lately due to catastrophic crazy water problems. My apartment complex had a broken water mane. When the water mane was repaired the pressure from turning the water back on messed up a ton pipes in many different apartments. The maintenance people have been working around the clock to fix all the various leaks that have been discovered. We didn't have any water for longer than most (2 days) because the sediment from the water clogged our pipes. Yippeee skippeee! So the past 3 days have been somewhat of a nightmare. I'm so glad my brothers pipes were alright and I was able to use his bathroom, being that his apartment is only a few doors down.

I went to the Vera Bradley sale yesterday. It may have been a little ambitious for me, considering my health problems. There were a lot of elderly people there worse off than me though, who were standing in those 2 hour lines like troopers. I ended up getting pretty exhausted and puking in the parking lot a few times. That was a little embarrassing. At least Sara treated it like it wasn't a big deal. At those times I wish I could read minds. lol. I bought some good stuff for mother's day and a lot for myself. :)

I got my official rejection letter from Kennesaw in the mail the other day. It offered some really good options for community colleges and online classes. I think I'll take a look at those offerings. I screwed up this semester pretty bad, but I think everything will be ok when I go to the doctor and figure out exactly what I have. Then I'll be able to have doctors notes and such to help me get back into college.

I plan to get this place cleaned up after the maintenance guy leaves. The maintenance people have been leaving uberrr messes. Maybe I'll make gluten free banana bread this weekend. I have some really good over ripe bananas that would be perfect in a bread.

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